You are but mud, nearing your hundredth birthday, and one day you creak out of bed, stare up from the floor and on a table set before you are a bowl of sunshine and a bowl of mud.
It’s like any other day. The usual questions about how today will go, what the weather is like, what you have to do – these all take a pause while you consider what is right in front of you in such a surprising way. First instinct is to reach and feel the mud in the bowl, to see what it does, whether it adds something to your own wrinkled hand or if it just leaves you needing to wash your hands.
But then you stop and think a little more. From your bed the glow of sunshine, by no means overpowering like looking directly at the sun, seems more like a sunrise that hasn’t yet peaked above the eastern horizon. It has an appealing, hopeful glow.
You consider the tremor of real hope in your sinews, the pumping in your inner ear.
“If I could only leave behind this man I am reminded of each morning. How lonely it feels, the ache in my heart going back to a time when the world still belongs to me. All around me the world is bidding me farewell, its warm lights receding as a train departs the station carrying all that remains.”
Imperceptible to the conscious mind, hope rings and hope answers. Is there such a thing? In this miniature dawn? Show me this now.